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      So we got results today and her lymph nodes are positive. Now not at all are positive but two or three are which from my understanding means they will be taking out a cluster of nodes during surgery and she will have to go through chemotherapy and/or radiotherapy. I like that word radiotherapy. It sounds so much better than radiation treatments. Like you can put on any kind of music that you like and blast it and it would help. That sounds a lot better. I like that and that's all I'm going to think about it.
     I guess I was holding out that the suspicious nodes were just that.. suspicious. And nothing will come of it. Kinda hanging on to that and now I don't have anything to hang on to. I don't want her to have to go through this and there's nothing I can do to stop it. She's dealing with this result lot better than I am and I guess in the back of my head I knew it was going to be positive. I guess I just wanted one thing to go our way. She would have a mastectomy and that would be the end of it. No chemo, no radiation. I guess if there's just a small chance I hold on to that. With everything. On the plus side I guess with all the testing done we have all of our answers.
     We meet with the doctor on Tuesday to finalize what we're going to do and we should have a date for surgery. I'm thinking probably the first week in February. I guess that's all for now I don't feel like writing too much more. Thanks all for reading. Feel free to message me or leave a comment. I'll get back to you. I'm going to go clean something now.