Are We There Yet?

      So sorry it's been a bit but not a lot has changed. Becca is doing well and her treatments are now every 2 weeks. She is feeling tired and keeps complaining about stuff which is starting to get on my nerves. I mean suck it up already. I have problems too but you don't see me bitching about them.

      Anyways the color red in any beverage makes her want to puke. It's the color of the chemo she gets right now so those beverages are now outlawed till further notice. Her throat has been sore. We think due to the shot she gets the day after chemo to boost her immune system. This has affected her diet but she is still getting food in so that's good. Sleeplessness has been a big problem but she assures me she will try to take her pills before bed from now on. She's just not a pill person unless it's REALLY necessary.

      The stubble on her head continues to shed (hey that rhymes) and is a constant pain for her. We thought of shaving it off but I'm afraid she'd bleed out before I could finish so, as death is not the goal here, we'll just wait it out. I find myself back into the routine of asking her how she's doing a lot. I know she's fine and would tell me if she wasn't but I can't help it. It weighs on her the amount of time between now and when she can say it's over. When you think about it it's a bit daunting to imagine. You will have 8-12 months of your life that will no longer be your own and will be bound by medical procedures and rules and guidelines during that period to which you must adhere. On top of that she hates being the center of attention. Which is fine because that's my job dammit
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      She took today off to rest and try to get some sleep. I doubt that will happen as her body is as stubborn as she is. I took morning and went shopping, ran some errands and gave blood, hoping she would sleep but NOOOOO. Got a few hours to kill before I make dinner so while she's laying down in the bedroom (not sleeping probably) I'll watch some recorded "crap" shows (as she likes to call them) and wait till she comes out so I can again ask "how are you doing?".